ALISON BOSHOFF Pamela Anderson says stealing sex tape brought back

ALISON BOSHOFF: Pamela Anderson says stealing sex tape brought back pain of being raped aged 12

Pamela Anderson says the theft of her sex tape was a reminder of the powerlessness and trauma she experienced after being raped when she was 12 – and slams high-profile drama series Pam & Tommy for “retraumatizing” her.

The Hulu series, which starred British actress Lily James as Anderson and Sebastian Stan as her husband Tommy Lee, caused laughs when the intimate scenes were released.

Speaking of the Emmy and Golden Globe-nominated show, she said, “I get nightmares. I did not sleep last night.’

And the model and actress, 55, added: “I don’t feel like looking at it. I’ll never see it I’ve never seen the tape, won’t watch it. Who knows how they will portray it. No one really knows what we went through back then. You should have needed my permission.

Pamela Anderson says stealing her sex tape sparked memories of feelings of powerlessness after being raped aged 12 and attacks drama series Pam & Tommy for

Pamela Anderson says stealing her sex tape sparked memories of feeling powerless after being raped aged 12 – and blasts drama series Pam & Tommy for “retraumatizing” her

“I texted Tommy the other day and said, ‘How do you feel about everything?’ and he’s like, ‘Pamela, just don’t let it hurt you like the first time.’

She continued: “I put that out of my life to survive, it really was a survival mechanism and now that it’s all coming back up I’m sick in my stomach. My stomach now feels like it has been hit.

“It feels like the tape was stolen. Basically, you’re just a thing that belongs to the world.’

While honeymooning in Mexico, the couple shot a 54-minute home video on Hi8 videotape, mostly joking around. It involved about eight minutes of sex.

Pamela and Tommy became the focus of the first celebrity sex tape scandal in the 1990s

Pamela and Tommy became the focus of the first celebrity sex tape scandal in the 1990s

According to a police report the couple filed in 1995, the tape was in a safe in their home alongside weapons — an AK-47, an FNC assault rifle, a .45-70 caliber and a Mossberg stainless steel shotgun, and a Rolex , a gold-and-diamond Cartier watch, and the white bikini Anderson wore to her wedding.

The entire safe was stolen in October 1995 by electrician Rand Gauthier, who had been fired by the couple and believed they owed him money. He was played in the film by comedian Seth Rogen.

Gauthier says he rolled her 6ft x 3ft x 4ft safe out of her garage, which was strapped to a cart in the middle of the night after it bypassed her security system.

He had no idea of ​​its contents until he opened it, and later recalled thinking, “We’ll put it in (the video machine) and see what it is, and of course cha-ching!” The dollar signs fly before our eyes. But we’re going, that’s the kind of thing people get killed for.’

Anderson said of the Emmy and Golden Globe nominated show,

Anderson said of the Emmy and Golden Globe nominated show, “I get nightmares. I did not sleep last night.’ Pictured: Lily James and Sebastian Stan in Pam & Tommy

In March 1996, aware that copies of the VHS were in circulation, the couple filed a $10 million civil suit against anyone they believed might have a copy, including Penthouse magazine. The tape has since been sold on websites and also aired online by internet prodigy Seth Warshavsky.

In November 1997, the couple sold him the copyright, after which Warshavsky’s Club Love sold access to the tape. Club Love then struck a deal to make VHS copies of it.

Pamela Anderson and Tommy Lee filed a $10 million lawsuit against anyone they believed might have a copy of the sex tape

Pamela Anderson and Tommy Lee filed a $10 million lawsuit against anyone they believed might have a copy of the sex tape

Anderson tells the Netflix documentary Pamela, A Love Story, out January 31, that it still haunts her.

She said: “It was a really happy time in my life but I didn’t know everything was going to change. We had no idea anything in there could hurt us.’

The first inkling was when a copy of the VHS tape was mailed to them. Tommy Lee watched it. Anderson said: “He says, ‘This is going to be worrying. This is a VHS tape of us having sex. Oh dear God. We noticed they have our home videos, that’s the ‘Oh s***!’ Moment.

“We were newly married, we were naked all the time and only filmed each other on holidays and stuff. It was just us being fools. They found as much nudity as possible from different Hi-8 tapes and put them together.’

Not knowing how to get the tape back, they took legal action. Anderson was pregnant with their second son, Dylan.

She said: “I didn’t know I was going to be totally humiliated. I remember walking into the courtroom and all the lawyers had these nude pictures of me. They said, “You were in Playboy, you have no right to privacy.”

The 55-year-old model said she felt

The 55-year-old model said she felt “completely humiliated” after the leak.

“How do I get asked about my sexual preferences, body parts and where do I want to make love when it’s stolen property? It made me feel like such a horrible woman, that I’m just a piece of meat, that it shouldn’t mean anything to me because I’m such a whore at heart.

She adds that it brought back feelings of shame and powerlessness she experienced when she was raped.

She tells the documentary that when she was 12, she walked into a condo owned by a guy her friend had a crush on. The friend went upstairs with the owner and she was left downstairs with his 25-year-old friend. They were playing backgammon and then he told her she looked like she needed a massage and raped her. She didn’t tell anyone.

She tells the documentary: “I was so ashamed of what happened. I felt like it was my fault. My mother used to cry for my father and I couldn’t bear to hurt her any more. I didn’t tell her or anyone else.”

Speaking of the court case, she says: “I don’t know how many days I was put off, but they wanted me to come back and come back. I just said to Tommy, ‘I can’t take it anymore.’

She said,

She said, “It was a really happy time in my life, but I didn’t know everything was going to change.”

“I know some people would have fought to the death for this, but I’m pregnant and I don’t want the baby to be affected. Tommy and I miscarried first and we were afraid it would happen again. We didn’t want to risk Dylan’s life. It absolutely devastated me, but I just closed my eyes and signed the papers.

You didn’t earn a cent from the tape. She adds, “You can’t put money into the amount of pain and suffering it caused.” Her name became the punchline of a thousand jokes.

She reflects: “It was different for me than for him. Tommy is a rock star – that adds to the craziness image and everything for him. But I knew my career was over at that point.”

Pamela, A Love Story is available on Netflix January 31.